So it is Monday night (technically Tuesday morning) and I am in the middle of watching Fight Club, but have it paused for a moment and still I am awake with my mind buzzing. Not sure what my body is up too, but spent way too much time surfing porn and jacking off. Enough times to feel sore and awake all at the same time. Guess it is kind of some tension that needed to be blown off. I think I have got off 4 times today already? Is this some kind of problem? It has been the story of my life since I was in grade school though.
I ran after work, and worked out, spent some time stretching and have been way too conscious of my body all day today. I just have seem to have this raw pent up energy after the weekend in the woods that will not be spent or placated. All too often I am this way, but enough of that. It merely sets the stage for my mood and mind right now. I always did think that Brad Pitt was a stone cold fox in this flick.
This weekends retreat was amazing. I am not even ready to start sharing all that I learned, the friends that I made and the relationships and discussions that were started and had. Suffice it to say, I know I have some good friends around me who will be loving on me and supporting me in a healthy Christian way. As I come to grips with it all I will try to get some details out here, but much of it is hard to fully process and grasp this close to it all.
Up way too late, can't sleep, too much sexual tension and can not seem to tire my body out, no matter what I do. I think I might watch the rest of the movie and then try to sleep for a few hours. None of this prolly makes sense, but I felt like I had to start a post in order to move in that direction later today.
More news later on the Mens Retreat and on being over sexed, over worked, over tired and under sleeped. Peace,
Daemon
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