It is 3:56 in the morning on Tuesday, May 19, 2026.

It is going to be a full day. 

My typing on a keyboard is definitely out of practice, but I am here to review my past and to start my blog and writing to share up again.

Life and the world has changed so much since I was last here.

Epically things have become more and less and other.

The last six years have been a hard journey. There were many times when I didnt make it. It was maked for me by the people I call both family and friends. Many tears were shed for me and my condition, but they were not my tears. I had nothing to cry with, to cry for. I simply existed in a state of fear and anxiety, hoping for sleep, or for death or for an end to the turmoil and depression I was suffering with.

And then it got better. Not over night. For me, not with therapy. I needed time and space and peace and quiet to be able to hear myself at all.

I am weary but i'll be back when im not nodding/passing  out,