Saturday, December 8, 2012
It was also the one year anniversary of Michael's attempted suicide and the aftermath and fall out of all those events. He has weighed heavily on my mind the last few months.
I went to hang out with friends and learned that my friend, David, passed away suddenly. Young, beautiful, intelligent, full of life and love. His boyfriend found him on the floor of the kitchen in their new home. He was simply gone.
To top it off, while we were all spending time together, Brian showed up. I was not prepared to see his face or talk to him, especially given the day's events. I put a brave smile on and soldiered through and then left for home early.
It has been a quiet few days. I am off to work and hope to lose myself in the business of it all. The fake smile and cheerful tone I force hurts my face and my heart, but I never give up. I never quit. Life goes on and I will not succumb to the pain I carry and feel in my heart about so many things.
Life is amazing. We are all connected and tied to the people we build our lives around. I believe that is what makes saying goodbye so very, very hard. I am off for now. Think of me. Love those around you. Never take one moment for granted.
at 5:35 AM