Woke up with the dawn again, with dreams of the past people and places in my heart and mind. The body feels good and fall greets the air. A question comes to mind, how many more of these do I have? We are never guaranteed tomorrow. My mind turns to Aaron and his operation yesterday. They can't fix him, it is up to God, just like it always was. How would I confront the reality of death at such a young age? Time is so short, and we all owe a death.
Morning messages and lunch today with a friend. Coffee and Christmas shopping! Planning for the dinner tomorrow night. I hope to speak some truth today, to be more than the sum of my parts. A wandering soul needs to find light, and I need to make my way in life plain. Our last lunch went on for four hours. What will we speak of today?
Upped the weight today on my workout, and my body is feeling it. Progress is good, but at what cost? I know I need to take care of this temple. but sometimes the maintenance and upkeep takes such a toll. To be blessed with genes closer to perfection would be nice, but I guess the fall of man got us all. Damn entropy!
The new rhythms and pacing of life now has me a daywalker, and it seems odd to be awake at first light. I remember this, how it used to be, how most people are. How can I do the most good, for as many people, in this short time that I do have. What is God calling me to? I feel like I am at the beginning of a long road trip, destination...unknown.
1I will stand upon my watch, and set me upon the tower, and will watch to see what he will say unto me, and what I shall answer when I am reproved.
2And the LORD answered me, and said, Write the vision, and make it plain upon tables, that he may run that readeth it.
3For the vision is yet for an appointed time, but at the end it shall speak, and not lie: though it tarry, wait for it; because it will surely come, it will not tarry.4Behold, his soul which is lifted up is not upright in him: but the just shall live by his faith